9 Months on Testosterone

God, what a god-awful week.  The election result caught me off-guard and reminded me how fragile trans progress is.  I don’t know what will come in the next four years, but it feels utterly bleak.  Not just for LGBTQ people, but for immigrants, Muslims, and people of any color other than lily-white.

But I won’t miss my nine-month progress report.  I had a week where I traveled abroad recently and where I was able to go semi-stealth.  This was in Central America, and while I passed perfectly, I was called “joven” a lot, so I probably passed as a 12-year-old.  That’s fine.

screen-shot-2016-11-13-at-8-59-02-amI noticed a small regression this month in how often I was called “sir” overall.  Could be due to layering up as it gets colder.  Could also be due to weight gain.  I’ve been stress eating a lot this month.

This will be the last month with me having to wear a binder to pose!  Top surgery happens in T-minus 10 days. I’ll post separately on that a few times and also on my experience traveling.  Comparison pics and video after the jump.

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Seven months on T

I’ve been so negligent on the blog due to the crushing weight of real-life obligations.  Oh well, I’ll try to do better, I promise!  This month has felt pretty much the same as last month.  Not much new is going on physically except that my screen-shot-2016-09-14-at-6-53-54-ambelly is getting kind of furry.

I have on and off days for being gendered correctly.  I wish I knew what makes the difference. But it’s still steady progress.

This month I’ve had so many med appointments for various reasons, all involving bloodwork.  I’m starting to feel like a pin cushion.  Next week I’ll get a readout on my current T levels.  (Haha, one of the one times large numbers aren’t a bad sign on a blood test.) Last time they were still below the normal male range, so I’d like to see them a bit higher.  I’ll also (hopefully) get a clearance from a hematologist that will let me schedule my top surgery.

Pre-T to seven months photos/video after the jump.

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In the land of tall women and short men

I am so lucky to be here at the Philly Trans Health Conference.  I’m here to learn (and I’ve been learning a ton, so mission accomplished).  I am in awe of how it feels to be in a trans/nonbinary majority space.  To walk the halls with people of all combinations of gender identity and gender expressions.  And to feel so normal and empowered by all of it.   It’s also nice not to be the shortest guy in the room for once.

There are also so many heroes here.  Legal and political advocates, policy makers, academics, activists, medical professionals, and so many others that help trans people achieve recognitions, acceptance, and access to basic services and accommodations.  Thank you to everyone I’ve met–you’re my heroes.

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